fucking sick!

so yeah hell yeah been sick for fucking gonna be 3 weeks, all the med i took not helping me at all so what he fuck is actually wrong with me? Why oh my is my tummy burning like hell that if it does not stop burning it might start smoking up!
        Seriously wtf is so fucking wrong with ma stomach! i thought i was clear of all this.. wanna say i been drinking alot nope been ages since i met mr liqour or beer.. then what is the problem with my stomachhhhhh!! grrrrr seriously pissing me of!! grrrrr rrrrrr rrrrr...

nervous breakdowns

Okay let's see so what the deal about nervous breakdowns...seriously it's nothing when you get it once in a blue moon, but when. You start getting it every other day in a life span of 2 weeks plus and about 3 breakdowns in a day it is freaky... So what is actually causing this breakdowns...hmmmmm , see this is the problem I have no idea what.. I jut can't seem to understand what is actually bothering me...but what ever it is, it's causing me to loose my sleep .. I get up all of a sudden wee hours in the morning...fearing something not knowing what.. When I sit I start shivering or deja vu's start flocking in.. Seriously what the fuck is wrong with me? Argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Buven 2011

Back again

    Been almost a year since i have blog but this time i finally think i should or else i will kill myself each day not being able to talk to anyone! I am beginning to blog again to tell the world how hard it was for me to come out for who i really am and the journey i face and the people i meet over the journey!  

  For all to know 2010 has been a rather bad year for me there were so many downs that i could actually count my up which was none! 2010 has been the worse year i could have ever encountered in my whole entire life, all i could remember of 2010 is sadness, hatred, anger, giving up hope, despair, heartache and all that you can think of. 2010 taught me who were my true friends, who were really there for me, how i am taken for granted most of the time, how just because i keep quiet people think i am stupid. 

  Well all this has taught me to be stronger but yet at times i cant help but fail to get hurt with a lot of things where at times i hope each time i close my eyes the problem disappear but nope it never will, if only it was that easy. I would have had a better life if it was so :).

Anyway after this all my post to come would be personal and how life has changed over the years. I am basically going to right about my past present and maybe the future! so till then chiozzz