good day...

ROFL! can you actually believe it i slept at like 1 am then got up at 3.30 then when back to sleep at 4 and got up at 5 and could not sleep that i sat down and meditated.. Which is so not me... i mean me and meditating like seas apart but i really did not know what to do at 5 am in the morning and insomnia is really killing me, i am like having problem sleeping and even if i do sleep i wake up like a zillion times in between.. no wonder i am cranky... rofl...

anyway so yeah today day been rather a good day for me.. i had fun at work, actually people i work with are bunch of funny people.. and i like the fact that they are accepting me for who i am ... but of course to just irritate me arfan loves to call me beautiful instead of handsome just to make me go berserk.. rofl.. but all is well all that said.. the thing we do.. tickles me till now! They are bunch of supportive people especially when it come to sales, they hear you out when your in pain. Help me when i need to be brought back to earth.. well i guess i am liking me working mates already :D

buven 2011

yes i am gay? you have a problem with it?

Ok yeah finally writing about the real me , yes i am gay and i am proud of it and if your to blind to see it i ain't can't help you with it! But you know being gay is ain't that easy especially here in this country. People look at you as if you have some kind of rabies.. hello people we are still human, we still function exactly just like you we walk , talk eat, sleep just like any human its just that our sexual preferences are different.

  Just because we love the same kind that does not mean we cant be friends.. cos i have good "straight" friends and they treat me all the same even though they know i am gay and yes they are close to me and yes they stand close to me and not shun me.. so yeah i think people out there should learn and start treating gay people with much love and respect!

 And there is ain't nothing with same sex relationship its the same .. all the same.. all u need is trust love and understanding.. basic function of an relationship :) :)


buven 2011

whats the issue ?

So yeah i skip a few days of blogging, been up tight with stuff.. Anyway, i am so lost on thought that i barely remember what i did last 5 mins ago.. am i growing old or am i just ignoring the world around me.. which could it be.. Well they did not simply say as you age problem increases especially when your force to take commitment that you actually don't have to..

  I mean being the youngest and the easiest to attack that does not give all the rights to point finger at me especially when i keep quiet all the time not retaliating back to all their wimp and fancies. I keep away try to please all but most of the time i end up getting myself hurt.

   Each day i wake up hoping my day would be a better one.. But it seems everything that i do is aint sufficient and everything i care for most of the time... hurt me...oh well i am going speechless of this matter until i have thought of ending it all for once and for all, maybe when i am gone for good people would realize what they actually have done that maybe in future someone else would be spared such treatment!

Buven 2011.